Wow... I am surprised I still remember how to find my way here... and i didn't forget my lj password.

What am I doing here?? The answer... is not a rational one.

It goes something like this....

1. I am busy with important AND pointless but necessary stuff.
2. When I am busy/stressed, I do real useless things which are supposed to help me de-stress
3. Useless things are time-consuming and have 0 productivity rate
4. I have less time to do important + redundant stuff
5. Stress level increases

Conclusion: it is all part of a cycle.

Oh well... writing this short msg definitely won't take up as much time as things I have to do but yet see no reason why I should do them. 

OK! I re-read the above and realise all these lead to a further conclusion - I should sleep now. 

The question now is to delete or not to delete this entry? 

Ps. Now I know why my philosophical essays always way exceed the suggested word count. 



 

It is amazing how some things in life can be so coincidental. Is there such a thing as fate? Do events happen for a reason? Acting according to some plan unknown to us? Maybe the people we meet are those we are fated to know. Depending on the amount of fate we have with each other, our journey in life may intertwine more than once or never again. That could explain why there are some people we think we will never meet again and yet, by some stroke of chance, we meet at the most unlikely place and time. In contrast, there are some people we long to meet and go all out to match their schedule, hoping to see them but yet we always miss them. There are even some people we do not wish to meet and try to avoid them at all costs but they somehow find their way to the very place we stand.

I guess life will remain a mystery till death and maybe beyond.

My arms are aching now. Nothing surprising after I had to literally drag a living being which weighs more than half my weight (i think) around and still suffer it’s dreaded struggle and kicks. In the process, I must have bent too much for my back experiences the same pain lingering in my arm. :(

Work today was tiring even though I didn’t do much besides stoning at the computer. Haha. I’m doing “operations” now, so every day I have to video a different class. It’s quite sad that I don’t have a class of my own but it is still fun. I get to go to a different P2 class everyday and see the little ones. I also get to “slack” a lot even though we go home very late (one of the latest today! :(). Hahah Take today for example. We spent about 4 hours doing nothing but waiting for the video file to be converted from mpg to avi. Gah... still say it was faster than using the tape/old video recorder!! Oh well... I guess once I start the editing, it should be quite fast.

Oh so far, the greatest thing about being in operations is that I got to video one of the PP class!! Hahah they are so adorable. (okay, only I thought so cause I had one of the better classes) Anyway, amidst the 4 hr “break” which I had, I went to the cafe to get something and saw the PP classes having their recess! Hahaha so I found the class which I videoed. gah... i was quite surprised that most of them remembered me and some even remembered my name! Hahah how touching... The teacher was really nice too... she let me join the class for the remaining 1 hr of lesson since I had nothing to do. aww I think I really like that class a lot! They are all so adorable looking and say the cutest things.  Hahah okay I cannot give specific examples but they are all very cute. Too bad I cant stay with them for the rest of my time there. :( Never mind... I shall visit them during breaks instead of staring at the computer!!

Arhhh i realise the last time i posted something was ages ago. haha tsk tsk i'm so lazy.

I guess prom was okay... before prom, I didn't really think much about it. I wasn't excited etc. Then before i knew it, it was 3 dec. Strangely, I started to be a little excited that morning. Thinking about all the ppl I would see... wondering how they would look... etc. I guess what was so amazing about prom was the ppl there.

There were ppl i know i would meet, ppl i would like to meet and ppl i wanted to meet but felt that maybe i shouldn’t see them even though it probably would be the very last time we met. Then again, it is most likely because i know i won’t see them again that i did not want to meet them. Gah... feelings are complicated. Anyway, i ended up meeting ppl from all these different groups. So I guess there is no point in deciding who you want to meet for the ballroom isn’t exactly very large and neither is it small. -_-

As I went around taking pictures with people, I realised that I didn’t feel anything. Maybe it is because I was busy and so I did not bother to think. I guess this is why humans find the need to work no matter how much they dislike the idea of having to wake up every morning and perform the same routine job. It is probably more of a need than a want.

Before I knew it, the end had come. Suddenly, I felt really emo. I thought I had managed to control these emotions the previous night... but I guess it wasn’t enough. No matter how rational I try to be, I realise that the heart is still stronger than the brain.

Maybe someday I will understand the importance of parting and why it has to occur in life. But I guess it is better to have these uncontrollable thoughts instead of living a life without feelings... like a robot.

Anyway, at the very end, I don’t think there was anything else I should have done. I believe I can move on without the feeling of regret.

HAha okay i know i'm slow but i just watched DBSK on star show and it was hilarious! AHHA i think i'm in luv with dbsk again... BUT not like i stopped liking them... so...

Spoilers... if you havent watch it yet...